I don’t know how to say that I’m sorry enough so that you’ll forgive
I’ve lied, I’ve deceived, but I still want your forgiveness, I know it isn’t much but I’ve messed up. Messed up in so many ways, each with their own consequences, but with you, it’s like a heaviness has descended upon me that I can’t seem to shake off, it’s sticking like glue, and I’m miserable because of it, maybe it’s because there never was anyone but you in my heart, and I’ve possibly thrown it out of the window with how I acted. Blaming others is the easier way to get away from this, but with you, it’s impossible. I’ve had good times, I’ve had bad, but now the line is blurring, cos I’m in a quagmire of thoughts about how things will go from here… I’m sorry *huggies*