Finding Alternatives

Finding alternative plans is always a pain to arrange, but when they come together, it’s an indescribable feeling cos it proves that I have people around me who can make the time for me, thanks guys, you’re rockstars. From now on I’m just doing things with people who want me along with them, it’s time to let go of the rest, you’re not worth it anymore.

It’s time to be a taker for once instead of a giver. When is someone going to encourage me? No more will I be the one to comfort those who just use me, it’s up to you now. If you want to be friends, then be sure to act like it more. Peace

 

Messing Up

I don’t know how to say that I’m sorry enough so that you’ll forgive

I’ve lied, I’ve deceived, but I still want your forgiveness, I know it isn’t much but I’ve messed up. Messed up in so many ways, each with their own consequences, but with you, it’s like a heaviness has descended upon me  that I can’t seem to shake off, it’s sticking like glue, and I’m miserable because of it, maybe it’s because there never was anyone but you in my heart, and I’ve possibly thrown it out of the window with how I acted. Blaming others is the easier way to get away from this, but with you, it’s impossible. I’ve had good times, I’ve had bad, but now the line is blurring, cos I’m in a quagmire of thoughts about how things will go from here… I’m sorry *huggies*