When Looking Up

Looking up into the sky, it means that you’re aiming for the stars, but also that you’re down there on the ground doesn’t it? The lowliest of creatures look up to the sky, hoping for a chance to shine, it’s unavoidable. When you’re stuck between the earth and the stars, it’s the worst feeling…

I’m currently feeling that way, stuck between top and bottom, East and West. I’m a Eurasian kid living in a world where there’s no actual place for us. We try our best to fit in with wherever we end up, we really do… But honestly it’s hard you know, it’s hard to keep turning the other cheek when you can tell that some others see you as being ‘different’ and consequently leave you by the wayside. It’s hard to always smile and be happy when you know that your only home is the home you go back to, it’s not in the people you are surrounded by.

It’s sad that people like us have been living in countries like these for centuries but are still seen as being different. Am I so different from say a Chinese man, or an Indian man, or even a Malay man? We’re all human, but I guess some are treated more equally than others eh… You know what, I say bugger it all, I don’t need to have your approval. Right now, all I want is to look up to the sky, and be at peace with everything. I hope you’re happy with yourself.

 

Dreaming

I’ve been dreaming a lot lately,

About this, that, and the other,

I don’t want to seem disloyal,

But it hurts so much everyday.

I think of what we have,

Of what we have gone through,

It hurts even more than before,

These feelings coursing through my veins.

Hardly being part of your life,

Hardly being a part of mine,

Those aren’t proper words to describe,

How we are to each other.

Always have I felt so melancholy,

Always have I felt so joyful,

But it’s been so long since,

I’ve felt these two emotions together.

I love you, I really do,

I guess this makes it harder,

When I cannot say to you,

That I want all of you.

 

Such a sad song to listen to when you’re sick XD