When Looking Up

Looking up into the sky, it means that you’re aiming for the stars, but also that you’re down there on the ground doesn’t it? The lowliest of creatures look up to the sky, hoping for a chance to shine, it’s unavoidable. When you’re stuck between the earth and the stars, it’s the worst feeling…

I’m currently feeling that way, stuck between top and bottom, East and West. I’m a Eurasian kid living in a world where there’s no actual place for us. We try our best to fit in with wherever we end up, we really do… But honestly it’s hard you know, it’s hard to keep turning the other cheek when you can tell that some others see you as being ‘different’ and consequently leave you by the wayside. It’s hard to always smile and be happy when you know that your only home is the home you go back to, it’s not in the people you are surrounded by.

It’s sad that people like us have been living in countries like these for centuries but are still seen as being different. Am I so different from say a Chinese man, or an Indian man, or even a Malay man? We’re all human, but I guess some are treated more equally than others eh… You know what, I say bugger it all, I don’t need to have your approval. Right now, all I want is to look up to the sky, and be at peace with everything. I hope you’re happy with yourself.

 

Dreaming

I’ve been dreaming a lot lately,

About this, that, and the other,

I don’t want to seem disloyal,

But it hurts so much everyday.

I think of what we have,

Of what we have gone through,

It hurts even more than before,

These feelings coursing through my veins.

Hardly being part of your life,

Hardly being a part of mine,

Those aren’t proper words to describe,

How we are to each other.

Always have I felt so melancholy,

Always have I felt so joyful,

But it’s been so long since,

I’ve felt these two emotions together.

I love you, I really do,

I guess this makes it harder,

When I cannot say to you,

That I want all of you.

 

Such a sad song to listen to when you’re sick XD

 

It’s a New Day

I’m waking up this morning,

And I see that the sun isn’t shining through…

Is it because I’ve woken up too early?

I look to my clock and it says 9.35.

The sun should be up, so where could it be?

I look outside my window, and it seems pretty gloomy

It’s a new day, but it seems like last night never left me.

What happened last night, it’s a new day so where is my sunshine?

Then I notice it, she’s walking through my front door,

She’d only gone out to get us breakfast, that’s what I want to say.

Cos that’s the dream I had last night

 

Haha a quick breeze through a random dream, but one that I guess everyone has at some point. Life is like a new day, it doesn’t really start till you say hi to the one(s) that you care for so your day doesn’t start when you open your eyes, it starts when you say Hello